You are still my superwomen.

It's not easy observing someone you love. She's the one who tells me to be strong when I'm falling apart, but that's coming from someone who doesn't take there own advise. For three weeks now I have been observing my mom and the first week was just the same thing over and over. The second week I started to question everything. She's starts with her usual schedule, she's wakes up around 5:00 am, at 5:05 she's already taking a steamy hot shower and her Corrdios songs roaring through the speakers. 5:10 she washes her hair with Kérastase. 5:20 she washes her body with dove, she starts with her left leg and work her way to the feet, repeats with her right leg, then her arms and her neck. At 5:36 she stares at nothing and she falls into a ball covering her face. You could hear her silence tears,her wimpering. My heart is just broken. Seeing my superwomen falling apart. 

From my feild notes. 9/29/14

Why does she have these emotional brake breakdowns in the morning? Is it because we recently found out that my grandpa...her father has lung cancer. How can I help her? Seeing someone you love falling apart and not knowing how to help can be the hardest thing to experience. So for two days straight I've been looking through the internet and researching on emotional breakdowns. Tseng,Tiffany. "Signs And Sympotoms of A Nervous Breakdown" symptomfind. Tom larocci,MD. Web. 30 May.2014. In this cite, learning about these different symptoms of these emotinal/nervous breakdown. Helped me understand that's I need to be there, next to her, holding my superwoman and let her know she's not alone. The reasons and the struggles just driscribing emotional breakdowns. I have decided to do a little experiment. The experiment is changing to her Corridos to Banda. Reminding her of the great memories make her laugh more often. Try to help her understand this beautiful things called  life. 

 Picture taken on 10/5/2014 took her out and show her around reno, it's okay to smile while falling apart and that she's still my superwomen.

"Tu eres mi supermujer" I tell her.

"S on my Chest"  she's responds with her head held high. - feild notes.10:34 pm